FRIENDS

Its strange wen i remorse that I'm losing out on friends...
I get sad when i feel there aren't many whom i can claim....
There aren't many who can bring a smile upon my face...
There aren't many who can make time fly as fast as a rocket!!!!
But leaves me behind...pondering...
yes I have, I'm worthy of being a 'friend'

Its rains...it drizzles...
Its chill..its windy...
but still it felt sunny
The warmth i experienced...

Its strange we got entangled,
In bed of Roses
Debated if its time for 'Petals' or for 'Thrones'...
But agreed its time for 'US' after all....

Life is short...
'N' its for us 2 live and to enjoy...
To battle and baffle...
For its there to fight and solve the riddles....

Hope This joy last for long...
The 'Tie' to never 'Die'
To be there in Petals and Thrones...

ROADS

Do you remember the lonely road??
Do know how lonely it used to be??

The night have its beauty, have its glory...
The winds whisper as they pass by...
The trees stand still, and cast their shadow....
they witness moves and try to feel....

Ohhhhh!!!!!
How tired I'm!!!!

The dazzling lights say so...
shinning, shinning along....
illuminating the long bounty roads....

Ohhhhh!!!!!
How tired I'm!!!!!

Larked the creepy road....
smiled away its pains in rains....
as vehicles rode....

Ohhhhh!!!!!
How tired I'm!!!!

Squalled the yawing traffic signal....
turning and twisting...changing and changing....
carried the voyage along....

I wondered how blissful and colourful they look...
how dismal, they have been...
lighting...and shinning...
guiding...and viewing...
witnessing as 'WE' have been....

EXPECTATIONS

Expectation...
hard to feel , hard to express,
but it triggers all gusts of distress

i know its hard to define, hard to visualize
even harder to synchronize, with it of the 'other'

i feel , if i could just escape, escape ONCE
breath freely, hear the wishpers of the wind,
hear the birds chirp early in the morning,
when the first rays of the suns, adds a golden hue
on a chilly winter dawn.....

i wish i could float, float far away to a distant land,
an ISLAND (perhaps)

where only bays and blue sea...awaits to embrace me!!!!!

i wish i could be a kite....
i wish i could sail the oceans....
i wish i could toil around...
i wish i could dance around....
i wish it rains Only for ME....
i wish a double rainbow on a dazzling summer day...

i wish to feel the dews of the night...
i wish to feel softness of orchids...
i wish to feel, baby's first breath....
i wish to feel, the water of the Ganges...
i wish to feel, scent of a bamboo cane....
i wish to feel, mud wet in the rain...

i wish ...n wish...
the list is long

i just wish them alll...

MY FAIRY

I had a dream, today.

I found myself into a Beautiful world

Where trees were greener, flowers were brighter

Birds flew higher and sang sweeter.

The flowing water of the River told me a tale:

A little girl sitting by the bank

She was clad in a bright yellow dress

With long trailing strands of hair

With dimples on her cheeks, to highlight the Rosy hues.

Her eyes had a Spark, a spark to lighten and brighten me IN-n- OUT!!!!!!!

I saw her caressing the fishes, with her tiny fingers,

Playing with the Pebbles by the bank.

Saw her with a Small jar.

The fishes seemed to dance, as she directed them each move.

The birds seemed to tune their chords according to her mood.

The tree provided her a special shade, to protect her from the Sun.

The Sun felt ashamed to shine brighter than HER.

The Moon viewed and perhaps envied her, how could someone be so beautiful?

Was the question, She and I both asked.

Suddenly I said, “WOW’

She got scared and distracted…..

And Ran and Ran…to an unexplored entangled path

I cursed myself, but for what? For ADMIRING? I asked.

Just then I heard a voice: ‘Wake up NINI!!!!!!!!!! ’

Opened my eyes and kept Glancing, pondering,

I can see the same beauty, I thought!!!!!!!

I realized, yes it is my own Sweet Angel, along my side.

CHANDER BATI

Gobhir raate, Chander sathe
Sopnoloker jatri seje
Bheshe berai andhar pothe
Tomay khojar asha rekhe

Chunte chaoar ichha hole
Haath ti barai tomar toore
Khuje berai ghono meghe
Usha-r Robi-r aalo-r khoje

Megher upor urche Pakhi
Surjo mare unki-jhuki
Chander ghore andhar ekhon
Aalo-ye bhora jogot jokhon

Cholte cholte digannto
Pother seshe apporannho
Surjo jabe tar grihe
Apon mone se poth diye.

ITS GONE

When you lose that shoulder,
that ear, that arms which were meant
for YOU....

You lose a part of yourself.

That voice which was eager,
to inquire about you, your 'day'.
That Ear which was patient
to listen to your unstoppable 'chattering'
You suddenly realize "ITS GONE"

The moments you laughed along,
The moments you cried along,
The moments where you belong..

Belong or BELONGED????

The endless conversation of 'words' and 'silence'
The endless road of 'friendship' and 'love'
The endless nights of 'joy' and 'tears'

Tear me apart, tears beckon.....

I was, I am where you had left me and Gone...
I wait, I lie thereby...
To greet you, To receive you..
Whenever you feel the urge to be BY...

EVENING TO NIGHT

When the silent night creeped in,
into the busy buzzing evening,
I thought, I pondered, I wondered
As if, what was the need?

I realized, silence was needed.
The loneliness which even existed amongst the clinging crowd;
was not sort for, was not worth enough.

The sky looked beautiful,with dazzling stars
and the calm, serene moon.
With light floating clouds to play hide-seek with the moon.
They drifted, floated, trailed away to an unknown destination....



What is that Destination?
Or do they really need one?

The cool puff of breeze filled the surroundings,
After the long hot, moist day; it felt soothing.
With crickets near the hedge,
and bats flying on the edge.
With people chatting and driving along, the busy streets.

I paused...
I glanced...
I thought...

Which of these have their Destination???
Neither the Clouds....
Nor the Crowd....

DEFINITIONS

Sometimes its hard to name a relationship,but yes its a beautiful bond.
and I don't need a name for this bond
just love me, that will do;
and I promise I'll love u too.



Its really strange how we got along,
got along so well...
with no walls rising between us,
only flowing love in its unique way.

It was formal, the way we met
obviously in formal setting...
with job and work, with responsibilities...
but our love for our work united us in a special way.

You claim I'm 'dangerous'
to draw out your feeling,from core of your heart.
You claim I'm the only one to 'understand' you,
in your long lived years.

There has been tears, between us,
there has been gust of joy...
we've breathed along a long trailing path....
within the buzzing city streets...
till nights had drawn out....
giving its way to beautiful dawn...
when we felt the moist breeze touch ourselves
and birds chirping along...

DAWN OF MY LIFE

"Childhood" a word which refers to happiness, joy and enjoyment....
but is it so for all???
time when 'Ringa- Ringa roses' matter...
time when grandma's tales matter...

a curbing feeling...
something which press me down...



when the rides of a slips and swings mattered....
when a seat by the window mattered....



a game like 'antakshari' and 'lock n key' made our day...
where paper planes, flight brightened our eyes...
when dances classes became a puff of joy...
when pt classes taught us to co-ordinate and win....



amongst all this, i lost
i lost out on really moments of joy...
with fear and confusion, i lost...
i curved and cried...
but why??
why is the question i ask....

asked for a friend...
asked for a helping hand....
yes got one...
that I've lost now...



siblings were not there....
photographs of moments don't really exists much....
where some rainbow hued....
other than the stage of performance i loved(why loved I still do)

now i have some moment here and there..
all scattered in an entwined way...
i search for glimpses....for moments...
for love...for care...

WHEN I LOOK THROUGH YOUR EYES

I'm bad, I'm rude...
I'm insensible, I'm selfish...
that's all I say

You have eyes...
I wish i had....
to see in me a "new" way...
i never thought i could be....

To you my acceptance is my strength
I realize that's all

You think its enough to know,
You think its enough to feel,
You think its enough to only have the zeal...

You are contended...
You are satisfied...
Can you tell me why I'm not??????

I feel, if you know...then you should go ahead and say
I feel, if you feel...then you should go ahead and express...
You stay clam as claim I have been...
You act as a healer, as think I have been...

Your presence make me feel light,
Your presence make me feel elated,
Your care make me feel I'm special...
YOU make ME what I am.

CANDLE

what happens, if 'the thread' fall in love with 'the wax' of the same candle????
a spark which brings 'light' to put an end to darkness....
it lite up, the candle....
its burning, its going-- closer and closer....
to its love....
and the love going-- further and further....

its hope, its light....
its desire, its life....
its pain, its burning....
its mourns in sorrow.....



the dilemma,its confusing....
love or lust????
dying or being born????
re-illuminating or just destroying....

QUESTIONS

When time flies, does memories fly away too???
When sun sets, does it stop burning too???
When stars hide, does it stop shining too???

NOOOOOO!!!!!! that the answer to you...



When the silent river takes a turn, does it turn for good too???
When the glaciers flow, does it cools the burning land too???
When it rains; like never before, does it sooths thirsty land too???

NOOOOOO!!!!!! that the answer to you...

This is that and that is this....we often hear it, the way we lead....
When it rains all night along, after a long lazy noon
It does calm us down,but for bane or boon???

When cuckoo lay a egg in the nest of a crow...
The mother's love it receives, will only let it go....
When a baby comes out to receive the world's view....
The guarding angels guard us, only to be rebuked...



When dawn decides to go, to let morning take its place...
We let go its serene into the chirping nest....
When sun decides to set, to let moon shine upon the sky....
We let go its lazy sleep upon the soothing night...

Here upon i feel, i realize
what for did i write these lines????????

LOVE AND LOVE ME THAT WAY!!!

I arrived late today!!!
sorry Puchu you had to wait....
but it was not totally intentional.

I smiled like a new shy fooled gal!!!
when i saw u standing a far
ooh i lost a beat again n realized your love 'over again'.

Did i get the tickets u asked
I lied when i said no
then of course out them came!!!

We went sat in our respected seat...
ohhh god how happy i felt...
your touch kept me awake...
your smile made me smile....

your hand made me comfortable....
I LOVE YOU



well a celebration of love in reel to real!!!
mesmerized by all,
your warmth ,your hug, your embrace sweetened my day.

your silly moves and deeds all way...
made me happier to happiest...
did i tell you again that I LOVE YOU!!!!

oooh god how silly i behaved with tears rolling down
and you smiling along....
of mine getting annoyed like a child's cherish
and u comforted in in your own loving way....

you showered your love in your own way...
made me special in every way..
OK !!!!
Puchu is such a pleasure to pull your cheeks n give u a kiss....
i still laugh away!!!!



Your gift won my heart again...
those roses a wonderful i must say...
you admitted don't know how to express...
but i agree you love in a 'unique' way

the celebration of a day!!!
I LOVE YOU in every possible way...

ISLAND OF DREAMS

The paths changed, soon but not all of a sudden.

The fear of loosing- lingered in my thoughts.....or lacked the strength to fight back; or the zeal to WIN.
Failures came, as engulfing clouds engulf the shining moon.
Insults, Accusations filled the path.
Fear, Hope, Ego; all hard words to say-- mingled together in everyway.
-- entangled my life in the best possible way.

HOPE -- lite the candle, in my soul.

EGO -- stopped me from acknowledging the follies within me.

FEAR -- created confusions to draw out conclusions!!!!!!

A stubborn decision not just once but twice....
supported, but well protested-- shattering many dreams and expectations from me.

Joy, Happiness was not far away....
In the Unknown path which I walked away....
The strange world -- was strange enough
-- but welcomed in an Unbiased way...
-- embraced me slowly, giving me a special place
after little struggle in and out...
came to an "Island of Dreams" again....

ABODE OF CLOUDS

Clouds that we see high up there in the sky...just within your reach is whimsical.
within the woods of eucalyptus,fir,pine...the curvy roads take you higher and closer to the light, floating 'clouds'.
along the hills the vast stretches of beautiful tea- garden embraces you, welcome you to the 'abode of clouds'.



the mist drive you crazy,with colours and vibrancy of wild flowers make you intoxicated...
the viewpoints expose you to the wold's utmost beauty of valleys.

the rising sun,cast its light on the clouds to make it 'shine'....the flowers bloom to its warmth...and shining clouds cast its shadow as it floats through the tea-gardens, the aroma and shimmering greenery leave you speechless...




the place which gives you a chance to come so close to nature...where the woods meets the hills, hills meets the valleys, where you meet the clouds, the clouds meets the hills....a perfect harmony of high and low....
the chill water of both-rain and waterfall...
the greenery of both wild woods and maintained tea-gardens...

the soothing breeze along with the rays of the sun...
the mist,fog ,the clouds.......
where you feel eternal and uplifted...



where your spirits feel free from the cage of the world...and set its wings to fly into the lap of 'mother nature'....
where you meet yourself again; hear the voice of your inner self, after a prolonged silence...
where you heart experiences a unbounded joy, attains a calmness, due for long...
where you feel "EUPHORIC"